Toxic
I can see through you…..see your true shade, the black behind your purple,
The ugly within your beautiful casket….
I see the darkness reflecting behind your pretty brown eyes…..the lies you mask with your gorgeous smile,
Words carefully selected, sentences perfectly formed…..
You had me under, spell bound…..
The invisible horns keep your fake halo balanced,
Master of deception…..your best weapon my favourite weakness,
I wanted you bad, fiendish, your touch feels like a thousand needles filled with liquid ecstasy…..
You short change me!!
Leaving me unsatisfied, chasing my next hit…..I don’t want you but now I need you,
I don’t like you, loath you much…..but I don’t want anyone else to dance in your rain, give you their tears or hurt so good…..seeking rehabilitation,
I can’t keep self harming, using your blade, eternal tracks of you, never truly rid of your toxic lustful grasp…..
I support you, stand by you like roots to a tree, buried alive in the blackest soil…..
If you set me free I would probably return, a homeless puppy,
Incapable of functioning without Dysfunction and unrequited affection…..
Trapped in a hopeless place in which I fell,
I love you as I should only love myself, but the more I do, the more I dislike me…..
My mind, body, soul, womb now property of yours…..how did I get here?
Why does your poison taste so sweet?
Imune to the bitter aftertaste,
Already dead inside, My body hasn’t caught up…..
My tombstone will read “Sucker for love, who suffered for love”
Your gun, my bullets……
BANG!
♥
No expectations, leading to great inspiration,
Her exterior a beautiful shell, enclosed is the purest of souls,
That which she possesses could possibly make me whole,
Have i found what i was subconsciously searching for?
Spiritual magnetism we can’t ignore,
Strangers yet familiar, kindred spirits,
No red flags in sight, so we go with it,
Undeniable attraction, laws couldn’t restrain,
Nobody but fate to blame,
Eyes penetrating, we connect on a higher frequency,
Cautious but ready to fall so freely,
I see her visions and understand the present,
The future? What will be is whats meant,
Fragile yet endearing, somehow still she offers safety,
Even in silence, her conversation consumes me,
I want to know her innermost thoughts, Promise id keep it,
In turn i’ll tell mines, all my darkest secrets,
Receptive of the unexpected, open like a book,
Ive only read the table of contents and yet im already hooked,
Not blinded nor naive, just going with the flow,
Chapter one, a good read guaranteed, the ending……?
Who knows? ♥
